• 2 Essays due next Friday
• UV’s End of the Year Showcase
• Liwanag’s Spring Banquet
• Jessica Diaz’s Debut
• UV Banquet
• FINALS

Push through! Almost there!

When I’m home, everything slows down for me. It feels as if I can take a break on what I am doing and everything used to be the way it used to be… Vacations would just pass; me just sleeping, eating, and catching up with friends and family. These are just some of the things that I don’t usually get to savor when I’m up in Irvine. When I go back home, it is a glimpse of my past, where I left off from when I just left. Even though I go off and try to be independent and everything becomes reckless in my head and there’s so much going on, whenever I go home, there is a quiet of the storm. A peace that I can generate as everything is the same way that it was before. My family’s love, my friend’s company, and the comfort I find here in my home, in Chula Vista. It’s almost as if seeing through a looking glass that I can sometimes go through. Whenever I get here though, whenever I fall asleep, the same thoughts go through my head. The same memories. Not that I completely want to go back to most of them, but there is a comfort I find with them. Flashbacks of laughing with friends, staying up all night talking to a girl to make her feel better or just to talk; All run through my mind in an amber-colored film reel, over and over again. Sometimes it makes me want pick up my phone sometimes, but I won’t, not this time. Through the looking glass I go, but I will not be tempted with clear-cut memories and hidden truths. Just to look, that is all. Just to look.

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I would accidentally let in a potential stalker of my random room mate into our apartment. How creepy and scary. Got to watch out.

AND I DIDN’T GET TO TRY MICAH’S CAKE.

Also, plus 5 points to the room mate for saying to his friend on the phone “No, if you start messing with my room mates too, that’s it.” Respect.

*Yes, this is important enough to post on tumblr after I just said I wouldn’t go on tumblr for the rest of the quarter unless there was something important to say.

Breathe in, Breathe out. Don’t worry, everything is going to be fine. Just close your eyes and calm your heart. Let the stresses of your day come to a close. Let the anxieties of the future drift away. Just focus on now. Breathe in, Breathe out. How are you doing today? Listen, in the silence. What is it? Peace, Tranquility. All is fine. Don’t let your stresses eat you up. You are so beautiful. No matter what happens, as long as you keep on pushing, everything will be fine. Smile, because it always brights up a room. I love you. Whenever you need me, I will be here. Stop your crying, and look up at the night sky. Breath in, Breath out. Everything will be alright. Everything will be alright…

and I’ll always be praying for you.